sometimes is it even okay to feel this way.
to restart a new life? to get away from this place a start a fresh path
 

applied at Marianopolis, Dawson and Vanier
DONE . so relieved :)

Tired~

can somebody bring me strawberries filled with chocolate because if you do well i'll love you forever :) -craving for some right now-

My mommy hasnt come home yet, :(
Had a fiever and a huge headache between 4-6 pm and still having a headache at 12:45am

Yesterday haha

downloading some old chinese songs for my daddy and grandpa :) and of course i get to enjoy them also <3

Omg i have never a community so much in my entire life. Seriously CANT FKING WAIT TO MOVE OUT OF THIS CITY. People are rude, asshole and think they are the fking shit well guess what NO YOU'RE NOT FAGGOT. Cant wait for cegep, cant wait to not take orders from idiots

I miss that feeling of joy of liking someone and also that smile on my face. But i feel much more happier than I was last year so it's okay.

i thought we were good friends. i thought that i can trust you. you are the reason why i still believe there are still good guys around but no. life has once proved me wrong. you are a jerk like everybody else. anyway i dont care about you and your shit. dont bother me when you have a problem or some other things. i have already lost so many people in my life and i dont really care if i lose you or not because at the end of the day i know who's worth and who's not. some people are meant to stay in my life and some are not. like i cant stand those people anymore. pretending and pretending that makes me sick.

Maybe we could have been something but yet it seem that you have no interest in me

Tired but a good day

today my friend and i visited our 10th grade french teacher and yeah i do miss her. she was so awesome. to be honest all my french teachers all awesome throughout my high school year. i really hate french but throughout my 10th and 11th grade french teacher, i am more interested than before. anyway fuck the TRI

in my eyes, you are not important anymore because you are just not. i dont need you. i know that seeing you might still give my an effect but still fuck this shit, im done being sad over you. like why the fuck was i torturing myself

Seriously the waiters working in my restaurant are the worst. They are the typical men that I hate. They might be funny but they are freaking bitch ==

Rewatching my all-time favorite tvb series that ive loved since i was like 5 i think. It's journey in the west, the one filmed in 1996. I cant believe how good it still is and how funny it still. The music still makes me laugh, happy or cry. Seriously it's the best thing ever. It made my childhood. I still remember when i bought the dvd back in china and how ive watched them over and over until they finally were all scratched and broken haha <3 it proves that even after watching it 100 times and memorizing their lines, i would still love it and find it funny. I love you tvb for making my life brighter <3333

Sadly there are only few gentlemen left in this world. At least I still have those few in my life :)

I think ive lost 5 pounds today :( never felt that sick before.. Anyway hopefully ill be okay tomorrow

Never felt so sick before. I slept all day and didnt even do the cegep thing. I dont know whats going on with me but it feels like im really really tired and sleepy but i cant.. Anyway fml

Im happy because i dont need you anymore fuck that this is really over
Im happy by myself and with the people around ne

I have a super headache :(

• 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? i really dont remember
• 2. Are you outgoing or shy? outgoing 
• 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? tvb dramaaa heheee , especially on call 36 2 <3
• 4. Are you easy to get along with? maybe?
• 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? haha im afraid ill end up crying so i prefer not
• 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? someone that has a great sense of humor, outgoing, easy to talk to and goof around
• 7. Do you think you'll be in a relationship two months from now? no
• 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? him law :D
• 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? haha with the friends i have, NOP
• 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? my girlfriends 
• 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? oui
• 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?
  1-  cant take my eyes off you
  2-beautiful in white
  3-鄧麗欣 - 日久生情
  4-if you dont know me by now
  5-野孩子
• 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? not when they are dirty
• 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yes
• 15. What good thing happened this summer? reuniting with old friends, summer camp with the kids that i miss terribly, met some great people, had a crush on someone and much more
• 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? no
• 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? yes
• 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? no
• 19. Do you like bubble baths? i adore 
• 20. Do you like your neighbors? yeah?
• 21. What are you bad habits? being lazy, procrastinating is ma thing and much more
• 22. Where would you like to travel? europe/asia
• 23. Do you have trust issues? yes
• 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? sleeping
• 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? my body
• 26. What do you do when you wake up? i get right back to bed until my mom screams at me 
• 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? i guess a little bit lighter during winter time and darker during summer time :)
• 28. Who are you most comfortable around? my girlfriends, people that are fun to hang with
• 29. Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up? yes
• 30. Do you ever want to get married? yes
• 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? yep
• 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? haha, raymond lam and him law :D
• 33. Spell your name with your chin. -.-
• 34. Do you play sports? What sports? shopping
• 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? omgggggggggggggggggg i rather die then
• 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? yeah...
• 37. What do you say during awkward silences? "awkward.." haha
• 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? he must be either raymond lam or him law :D but seriously idk
• 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? zara, forever 21, stylexchange, h&m, sephora
• 40. What do you want to do after high school? travel
• 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? depends on what they did
• 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? either im hurt or im just really tired and if you keep bugging me ill slap you
• 43. Do you smile at strangers? hell no
• 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? outer space
• 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? huh i dont
• 46. What are you paranoid about? too much
• 47. Have you ever been high? no
• 48. Have you ever been drunk? yeah
• 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? nop
• 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? black
• 51. Ever wished you were someone else? yes
• 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? everything
• 53. Favourite makeup brand? nars/urban decay
• 54. Favourite store? zara
• 55. Favourite blog? smileywu.tumblr.com hahaha :D seriously i dont have any
• 56. Favourite colour? beige
• 57. Favourite food? too much D:
• 58. Last thing you ate? mexicain thingy that is spicy butreally good :D
• 59. First thing you ate this morning? water
• 60. Ever won a competition? For what? running
• 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? suspended for the first time last year because i was later during first period D: also had my first copy in my whole life..
• 62. Been arrested? For what? huh nothing
• 63. Ever been in love? yes
• 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? well i kissed this guy that became my boyfriend afterwards wouhou what a great story.. can we move on?
• 65. Are you hungry right now? no
• 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? no
• 67. Facebook or Twitter? facebook
• 68. Twitter or Tumblr? tumblr
• 69. Are you watching tv right now? no
• 70. Names of your bestfriends? ********************************************************************
• 71. Craving something? What? green tea ice cream omhhhhhhhhg
• 72. What colour are your towels?green
• 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2 with a hugeeeeee stuff animal and kuma kuma ;D
• 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? haha yesh
• 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? more thann 15
• 75. Favourite animal? doggy
• 76. What colour is your underwear? black
• 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla
• 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? superkid
• 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? green
• 80. What colour pants? no pants :)
• 81. Favourite tv show?  too many
• 82. Favourite movie? you are the apple of my eyes :')
• 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? 1
• 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 21..
• 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? no one
• 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? nemo
• 87. First person you talked to today? mom 
• 88. Last person you talked to today? mom
• 89. Name a person you hate? me
• 90. Name a person you love? me
• 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? yes
• 92. In a fight with someone? no
• 93. How many sweatpants do you have? a lot
• 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? a lot
• 95. Last movie you watched? a chinese movie i guess
• 96. Favourite actress? too many
• 97. Favourite actor? him law :)
• 98. Do you tan a lot? nop
• 99. Have any pets? no
• 100. How are you feeling? tired
• 101. Do you type fast? if im not tired
• 102. Do you regret anything from your past? a lot
• 103. Can you spell well? no haha
• 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? yes ..
• 105. Ever been to a bonfire party?no
• 106. Ever broken someone's heart? i guess
• 107. Have you ever been on a horse? yes
• 108. What should you be doing? sleeping/doing my project
• 109. Is something irritating you right now? not really
• 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yes
• 111. Do you have trust issues? what the fuck again
• 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? i dont remember i dont usually cry in front of someone
• 113. What was your childhood nickname? baby :) with a little chinese accent ok
• 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yes
• 115. Do you play the Wii? well not mine
• 116. Are you listening to music right now? yes
• 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? yup
• 118. Do you like Chinese food? huh what do you think
• 119. Favourite book? ouh thats though one, i guess the trilogy of fifty shades of grey, divergent/insurgent, hunger games.. ok too much
• 120. Are you afraid of the dark? well sometimes
• 121. Are you mean? yes
• 122. Is cheating ever okay? huh hell no
• 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? no haha
• 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? no
• 125. Do you believe in true love? yes
• 126. Are you currently bored? yes
• 127. What makes you happy? things that make me happy
• 128. Would you change your name? no i like them
• 129. What your zodiac sign? scorpio
• 130. Do you like subway? yes
• 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? well idk
• 132. Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with? ok again with this question
• 133. Favourite lyrics right now? if you dont know me by now you will never ever know me.....
• 134. Can you count to one million? you wish
• 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? cant thing of any
• 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed
• 137. How tall are you? 1m67 - 70 idk
• 138. Curly or Straight hair? both
• 139. Brunette or Blonde? brunette
• 140. Summer or Winter? summer
• 141. Night or Day? day
• 142. Favourite month? october
• 143. Are you a vegetarian? hell no
• 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk
• 145. Tea or Coffee? tea
• 146. Was today a good day? huh maybe
• 147. Mars or Snickers? idk
• 148. What's your favourite quote? fall down seven, stand up eight
• 149. Do you believe in ghosts? yes, i watch long island medium
• 150. Get the closet book next to you, open it to page 42, what's the first line on that page? too far