Getting over you

I'm really am tired sometimes. I guess the main reason why I cut my hair was an excuse for me of moving on. Moving on from guys. Guy that I loved, guy that I liked. I've became another person nowadays. I'm meaner, and I will ignore you because in my mind, there's no need for me to talk to you because you have obviously found the girl you want to be with. I can see it through your eyes. The way you looked at her, hurts me. What do you want me to do? I don't want to talk to you because I'm scared of falling over again for you. Everytime I passed by, I regret of not talking to you but at the same time.. I want to protect myself from being hurt. I'm really hurt, really really hurt it just doesn't show because I don't want it to show. I try to talk less about you, day by day, I want to forget you. Forget the love I once had for you. I'm so stupid but what do you want to do.. what do you want me to do. It's the best thing that I can do for myself. I try to find a replacement to replace the place you've took from my heart. I got attached to that person as well but not as much as I am towards you. Tears don't fall anymore because I don't let them to. Everytime I see you.. I still remember the first day you hold my hand, the first day you talked to me with your sweet and loving brown eyes, the first day when I kissed you, the first day I've fallen for you, the first day I've been hurt because of you, the first day I'd cried for you, the last day of me trusting you.

Sad to say, you still are in my heart and I still can't let go