Fuck my life, I mean fuck thank god I'm still alive or whatever. I just woke up from a terrible terrible nightmare. This has to be the worst nightmare ever like I have ever had in my entire life. I know how people feel now, those girls that want to commit suicide. At least I haven't been...but I almost did but even so I can't remove those images from my head. I was shaking when I woke up and still those images are still haunting me. I'm scared and just like the dream, I couldn't tell anyone because I was scared. What the hell, what was wrong with me to dream something about this...