Don’t fucking waste your time with people who don’t have time for you, move on, be happy and don’t give a fuck about them

you're the one I love, you're the one I need YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE I SEE
COME ON BABY IT'S YOUUUU

i miss talking to you fuck

stfu b

fuckyou bitch, really i cant fucking stand you anymore

yao hor lane gnor deille hm wouy joye jow pane yao. yao si gnor gnok dak lei go dow gei sam ho chon sor yi gnor zan haye yan hm dow lar.

i shouldnt hate you, i should hate myself instead because there's no reason for me to hate you. i cant hate you for not having feelings for me.

butterflies. i dont even know how it felt like but i have to say that it was a wonderful feeling

i still really miss you but I just dont care about my feelings anymore.

I wonder if I should start a beauty blog.

FANGIRLING

omgggggggggggg i love tvb, cant believe they have so many amazing sequel coming up that are from my childhood or that i really love.
- a great way to care 2
-on call 36 hours 2
-triumph in the sky 2
-war of beauty 2

ive waited for triumph in the sky and war of beauty for more than 10 years. it truly is amazinggggg <33333333333333333333333333333333333

My thoughts

I guess I think that my first love did affect me. Not the first person I've ever dated but the person I have loved the most. He's my first love. Not matter what I can't change that because the feeling I felt towards him was somehow real to me. I cannot deny that I would like us to give it a try but at the same time, the problem was that we aren't in the same world. I don't see a future for us even though I hope that somehow it would. I miss him but at the same time I'm much more happier now. I kept torturing myself by thinking of the past. There was a period of time where I didn't want to guys because I feel like I don't want this anymore. People say that I've changed but it was only a way to protect myself. Right now, I can truly say that it doesn't matter how I protect myself, I would get hurt anyway so why not change this perspective that I had. It's okay to have guy friends, it's okay to flirt, it's fucking okay to do whatever you like and not think of what other people say because by so, we learned more experiences and we become wiser that we used to. I've missed so many opportunities to meet new people in the past because I didn't want anybody else expect him. WELL FUCK IT. I'm much more wiser now, if it's not meant to be then it's whatever. We can't always live in the past and how happy we were because no we weren't fucking happy. In our mind we thought we are because right now we feel miserable. That shit is stupid. We have to wake and realize that to be happy, we have to make it happen. We have to do things we like and not care about the people that judge. If you like to read and it makes you happy well READ. If you like to party and get drunk well do it, it's your life. I don't party because I am on diet haha but I would if I was skinny and shit. Beside it's not healthy. Anyway the point is, I do what I like. If I want to stay home and sleep well that's my choice. Even though it's a waste of time but who cares? I am fucking tired. 

Also I should stop cursing haha, it's not classy but I just wanted to prove my point. Whatever I curse if I want to. 

it still kills me but im trying to maintain happy

reading to go to sleep again after a five hour nap~
seriously i have a problem haha :)

i just miss the feeling that i had for you

no sometimes i dont need your fucking opinion and what you fucking think okay? because if you had the chance you wouldnt have done the same way. stop pissing me off and acting like a fucking fake ass bitch. you disgust me seriously!

okay i have a serious obsession with rihanna's song-stay

cool my mom bought my favorite korean instant noodle. wow lately i have been obsessing over a lot of korean things. their food, music and show. well old music and new drama. I CANT WAIT FOR THE EPISODE OF THE PRETTY LITTLE LIARS OMG and also vampire diaries. k i just love everything haha

Tonight was awesome. Since I was sick for the last two weeks, going karaoke was awesome. I got to sing which is a pretty cool thing for someone that lost her voice/throat hurted as hell. Tonight also i came to a fact that I really but really hate beers. It's freaking garbage and it makes me fat so no way I am drinking it ever again. I'm not really a beer person, I refer classy stuff like wine or champagne you know. Volka is cool when it's an awesome party but you know.. DIET OVER HERE. After karaoke we went eating and it's always great to hang out with great people. I had an awesome night especially because I don't get to see those friend as often so I cherish those moments when we get together, eat and laugh. Those are the little things that make good memories

Feel so tired, guess im staying in

I know why girls are so obsessed with one direction haha. The lyrics of their songs do melt our little heart. How cute.

I really enjoy spending time with myself especially when I am somewhere quiet. I love to read book especially the self approvement ones are the best. I feel much more happier after reading them because it motivates me to become a better person. Some people might think this is boring but it's actually not for me. I enjoy doing this and I think still do it for the rest of my days. I need a break of all the school work and social stuffs. Reading and listening to music help me get to a better place. Of course I love to party and do crazy stuffs, going out with friends but I still need this. People should start to understand my values and not keep up judging me because they don't see me like this. I've changed to become a better me. A happier person that I haven't met before because she didn't know what she wants. Maybe I do have two personnalities sometimes but I'm fine with that. Currently reading a self-improvement book called "Living with less". It's so good that I can't put it down. Maybe I should buy it but it's too expensive for such a little book. Anyway feeling happy and I just wanted to write this down!