You know I guess I cant stay on like this anymore. Like I know there a lot of regrets but sometimes a girl just has to move on for her on good because if a guy was really insterested in you well it wouldnt be like this like come on dude it was freking obviously. Do I really need to say it outloud because come on! Even if you are "shy" there are still limits to this shyness... Anyway it's not like I would be hurt forever because I know there are still plenty fishes in the sea. It's okay if you don't want me because maybe I don't want you anymore. I've come to a point that it doesn't matter who it is as along he treats me well and makes me laugh. Those are what I am looking for in a guy. And there are so many of them that do. I feel blessed and lucky. Recently I went out with some girlfriends and him.. One of my last summer crushes lol I mean there were only two. I enjoyed that feeling. He's always on time I mean always 5 minutes early and that's what I really like about him. One of the things that's cool about him is that he used to be so shy but since last summer we got closer by arguing a lot and now we are always teasing each other. I guess that's what I am looking for. A guy I can be best friend with. Teasing him and making fun of him (a little bit) from time to time. 

Life is too short to always worry about stuffs you know. Always be happy and have a smile on my face :))