not given a single fuck

next summer definitely going on a trip with my friends. or maybe my future boyfriend lol? but yeah for now no relationship for me

ok i have fallen in love again with a fictionnal character well pretty much with the role that Charlie Hunnam played

okay killed me now :( im obsessed with him and i think im goin crazy soon

remember shirley, you have your family and friends and that's all it matters

so don worry about that stupid crush

it would go away eventually

stay strong and be brave

i know you can do this

sincerely from your own self

dont drink to forget him because he isnt worth yor freaking time

has he ever bother to talk to you? no

he never did the freaking first step.

he's a stupid boy that you need to forget.

he isnt worth your precious time.

forget forget forget!!!!!!!!!!!

Can i just cry already

fuck feelings. i dont need them.

ive been drinking too much this week.. the pain seem forgotten but then ive realized that if i was to get drunk, the person i want to bring me back home is him. the one i want to hold tight while taking the metro would be him. because it seems like i cant stop thinking how much i miss him.

I realized that I'm like a vampire. Staying at home during the day and going out at night but yeah. It was fun. So shop with K today. Haha ive realized that i should shop more with guys from now on because when i go to the men section... hihihi but it was fun and hurt my wallet a little bit because i bought some clothes :( we went to ganadara and the thing i took was just too spicy. We went to pool and after that I went to meet up S for like a late night dinner that most asian do. So yeah we waited for the guys to come for almost 1h30 but it was fun. Really fun. Love messing with those guys sometimes. Just a simple night out like that can brighten up my day. 

Single life is awesome when you have great friends to hang out with! 

Enjoying it the fullest :D

I just want us to be at least good friends.

There are so many guys that I really regret liking but this particular boy D well I've never regretted even from the start. He's such a really good boy. Hearing his break up with his girlfriend of 3 years did break my heart a little because I was really hoping that they would last for a long time. I know I've liked a lot and kind of confessed before but when you really liked someone you would wish them happiness. The day I've let go of this feeling of him I was truly wishing him a lot of happiness with his girlfriend. I see how he really loves her and it must really break his hurt because I'm sure he still has feeling for him. For me, he's a friend now and do really want to do something. Even though we're not that closed because I guess after everything we've distanced.. I really wish we can reconnected because I still want him to be appart of my group friend. I wish he can eventually move on and he might be happy one day. Anyway I just really need to vent because it makes me sad. Girls can be so heartless and stupid sometimes. But maybe she has her own reason but anyway.. she missed out on really great boyfriend.

So many of my guys friend around me either got rejected or dumped by an idiot girl. I feel so bad for them and all I can do is be a good friend and support them. No matter what, I will always support them because I know how it feels to be hurt but I guess I'm truly strong enough to be the independant girl that I always wanted to be. Seeing everything going around me just makes me realize that I'm truly happy single. Anyway I need to sleep. 

thoughts

sometimes i look around me and i feel like i deserve better. some guys just treat me so well but i only realize after. i tend to go for the ones that arent interested in me and it hurts but i forget those that stick around and make me feel appreciated... fuck those that dont care and dont make the efforts & cherish those that care & treat a girl like a queen..

tired of posting stuff, im done with this too

Feelings

Good times should be remembered, bad times to be erase. This summer is the start of something new. I'm not letting anyone getting in the way of ruining my summer whether it's family or close friend. I deserve to be happy for once and yes I will be selfish to get this happiness that I've never gotten ever before. Party hard, work hard, gym hard. I don't care about anything else. Love and shit .. not for me. I'm tired of hurting my own heart. It's either you are worth my time or else, gtfo of my life.

I'm done. If you still don't understand and being your stubborn little self then I'll just let it be. I don't want to understand you anymore. I'm done. I don't need this. I don't care what you think because you surely don't see me trying then what's the point. Like I'm sorry but you're the one that's making yourself depressed not me. Whatevers tired of this bullshit.

not to be in a point of being drunk but seriously never drank so much in my entire life. i feel really dizzy but it's okay.. i guess i forgot the pain of missing him.

Time to move on, time to grow up, time to be an independent new me