I'm really tired of crying every night because of the woman that gave birth to me. She has no right to make me sad every night and keep screaming at me.

Fuck everyone

那些年錯過的大雨..那些年錯過的愛情

我每天都想念你,事實是，我仍然愛你 但是你已經改變了。我不知道為什麼我還是想你,和你甚至不愛我。那些年的日子是我人生中最快樂的，因為我是和你在一起...

Too busy weekend, didnt have the chance to right on my blogspot but anyway nothing much happened and I was tired like almost everyday.. didnt get much sleep either.. hello dark circle! It's alright I can always cheat because we live in a world with make up.. I love you concealer and bb cream, at least you can cover some of my imperfection..
anyway im really tired goodnight!

Today I have to keep things short, I'm super tired and today was pretty awful... not saying that it was horrible but it was tiring. I hate my english teacher because he's so annoying and always doing favoritism. Anyway it was cool though.. I'm tired so I'm going to sleep... goodnight tumblr
one good thing about my day was him, seeing him just makes everything better <3
At the end of the day, he's the last thing in my mind and without him, my days wouldn't be the same

Today was alright. I'm feeling better than yersterday.. I'm a little bit tired of everything but I think I can make it through! In life, we have to stay positive and be sure to be happy. It's hard sometimes to cherish people that doesn't really care about you. But I'll to! Life is hard but it's simple at the same time, it really depends on the perspective. So yeah, today nothing really happen and there's I want to talk about my day also. Even though it was the birthday of four of my friends, what a coincidence that they are all born at the same day. I'm a bit worried about tomorrow's labo.. I've also finished my asian drama that has Kenneth Ma and Steven Ma inside, they were amazing like always. Lately, I've been watching a lot of TVB series and I stopped watching Korean and Taiwainese movie/drama. It was mostly because of On Call 36 hours that was just super super super amazing to watch! Wow, that was an amazing serie. I really miss watching good TVB series since a lot of my favorite childhood actors are leaving TVB. Those series will always be a part of me because they inspired me of being the person I am right now and also helped me to find my dream job. And also, lately, I've realize that my cantonese is not that good so I better catch up. Anyway, I'm hoping that the sequel of the TVB series that will be releasing in 2012 will be as good as the ones I used to watch 10 years ago that made my childhood. War of Beauty and the triumph in the sky <3 I don't know why I wanted to share this in my blog today but it's just a really note that I want to keep in my little blog. I hope that I can write on it everyday for at least a year, that's my goal.. Also re-reading my past post in my other blog was just hilarious, I was so funny before and also so happy. Why am I becoming such a negative person? That really sucks when you realize that you've changed into a person that you'd sweared you would never become later.. Anyway that's what I wanted to share today! Goodnight blogspot, I've to take my shower and go to bed cus I have a lot of dark circle and my bb cream is almost out.. One more thing.. lately I've been putting a lot of make up, almost everyday except on weekends. That's funny because people usually wear make up on weekends because they go out, but they don't put during school. I guess my reason is that now that I've dyed my hair in black.. I'll look horrible if I don't put make up on. I really don't like that colour sometimes because it is so fake but at the same time I find it really hot. Not because it's on me, but on everybody. I'll find it sexy but it's fake at the same time. It's alright, I'll get over it soon and hope that my hair will grow faster because summer is coming and I want long hair! Anyway, goodnight!

So today was horrible. I woke up super early this morning because i had a stomach ache because of... I was really mad at first cus I lost two hours of sleep and there was no freaking MOTRIN at home so I didnt find any so go back to bed cus I wanted to sleep a little bit cus school was going to start in two hours so I went back to bed. I woke up because my mom was screaming at me so I was like okay let's go school but my stomach ache got worst so I told her that I couldn't make it to school because it was too painful. My dad said it was fine for me to miss school and that I should go back to sleep and guess what. My mom didn't believe me so she told me to pack up my things and she'll drive me to school. Like really? Do you want your daughter to die in front of  you before you realize that she's in pain. I told that I couldn't go to school so I went back to bed. She started screaming at me and to wake me up. I can't believe she thought I was lying, I was literary crying for 30 minutes because of the pain. She gave me some of her medicine and told me to go back to school after sleeping 15 minutes. 15 minutes?!? are you really kidding me? anyway she was just being a little %?&*( this morning and not only that, I've finally realize that she never did cared about me. Sometimes I even wonder if I was really her daughter because all she does is caring about my sister so yeah I don't care.. that just proves that my relationship with her will......... anyway worst day ever

Life is getter harder day by day, so cherish the people you love and forget the ones that are not worth it because at the end of the day, they already had forgotten about you. They will ignore your presence and the fact that you once had a friendship with, it is sad to say but it's the truth... That's how sad it is.. how you two were once more than strangers..

One by one, will I find the right one?

Today's mood was okay so far. We didn't talk much today, maybe one two minutes? Not even a single hug... It's fine I'm okay with it even thought I'm not used to not hugging him. When my friend told me during lunch time if I'm still in love with that boy, I told her I didn't. She asked me how could I because I see him everyday. I told her that I've moved on and she didn't believe me. Even I, can't even believe that I don't love him anymore. I understand how she felt when I've told her. I've spent one year loving that guy and sometimes I wonder if I'd wasted my time but no I guess not because there are so many good memories that I'd spent with him. I loved him so much and there was a period of time that he meant the world for me. But day by day, I'd realized that he didn't need me at all. I wanted to move on so badly everyday I tried to, he didn't work but suddenly this past month, I've been trying to move on and to see other people. There was this other guy that I'd tried to work things out also because I'd a little bit of feeling for him also at the same time when I was loving the one I thought was my true love. Complicated right? But this past few months, one by one, I've been trying to find the right one. One by one, they disappointed me a lot... One that maybe had played my feelings, one that never responded my feeling toward him and one that I'm still figuring out if we should be together.. Why all this has to happen to me, why why why! I don't want all these drama to happen to me, I'm sick and tired. Why can't I find the right one? Why does every guy that approach me end up hurting me. I guess I'll be find single because it's alright now, I've learned my lesson a long time ago. I don't need somebody to make me happy. But I just am sick of haven't these guy giving me mixed signal so hehe :) Why don't I just give them up.. I should don't I?

It’s fine that we don’t have a label. I’m alright with it because most importantly is that I’m with you and I’m happy. I like the way we tease each other and someone we really do offend each other but at the end of the day, we know that we can’t lose each other for a silly little argument. We both make an effort for this sort of friendship to work because we know that we mean something to each other. I may be a little cranky sometimes but that doesn’t stop me from not talking to you because it wouldn’t make my day at all. I can afford to lose someone I really care, I just couldn’t take it well if I do lose you. You were for me when everything was falling apart even when it’s a simple hug, a “how are you?” or a “are you okay? ”. It does make a difference and I’m thankful for that. Thank god that I still have you. But the only problem is, I would never tell how I feel because I don’t want anything to ruin this friendship that we share. You always be my special someone in my heart <3

Just read my old blog, ahaha I was really happy back then and funny

Can't wait for everything to be over. I'm so overwhelming to finally know who are the people that are there for me and those that are just so bastard. I'm really hurt but at the same time I've learned that it is not worth it to keep those people in your life and you put them in a super high position in your heart. It's not worth it. I finally come to the point in which I know that I can't even count my true friends in one hand, that's so sad but it's the truth and it doesn't really bother me that much. I don't need fake people in my life that won't stay so why don't I just let them go and move on in my life later on. I'll be grateful for myself. It's still hurts me a lot a lot but I'll try to let go and not think about it that much just forget forget forget. I wonder who would stay until the end with me.. I still wonder

Today my mood was so so. I had chinese school and it was pretty fun like always because I like to talk a lot and I saw some old friends that I kind of miss a lot because they always made me smile in the past. It doesn't stop me from looking forward but at the same time, I want to stop there and rewind some great memories

I wish I can have a really wonderful love story with someone. Lately, I've been watching series and it made me realized that my life is simple and I need something that's more than special. I want to live a life with actions and happiness at the same time which I can think back later on in life when I'll get older. It's maybe silly to me or to everyone else but everybody dreams to have someone they love and that they can cherish beautiful moment with.
This is my thought today, and lately I've been upset with on call 36 hours, it became one of my favorite series in TVB. Not only it was super funny, but it was super interesting seeing how they save people lives and the love story was just too amazingly perfect to watch. It was a bit short but I enjoyed it very much and it made me realize that I want a love story similar to that, at least someone that will love me like how Kenneth does to Tavia. They are just the cutest couple and it's true that TVB series are much more better than Korean Drama that's for sure. Not saying that because it's my culture but at least it's realistic those series and we cried not for a silly reason like because the guy left the girl because of a stupid disease. That's what I wanted to share.