You know that feeling when you look at the person when you used to like during your childhood. I don't know how to describe this feeling but it feels great. It just reminds me that I've grown a lot as a person. You will always have this sort of soft spot around this person. Not that I still like him but you know it was my childhood sort of first like like. It just reminds me of my boyfriend in kinder garden. I lost my first kiss on the cheek to him. I had a lot of not real relationship during my childhood and almost teenager stage. I've never really been in a relationship with someone since then. Maybe because I excepted too much from people and we always end up things in the talking stage. When I think about it, my childhood was just filled with great memories. But back to the topic that I don't know what it was. I just think that right now, I am not looking for a relationship because it just doesn't last. People fall too fast and end the relationship too fast. Most people I know are not serious and I want to find someone that is ready to deal with someone like me. Someone that's ready to have a commitment and all the shit. Most of all, I want someone that can make me laugh. I have to admit that I'm a pretty much depress person. I need to laugh because without laughter, there's not a reason for me to be happy. To me, being in love is not the priority of the relationship but it's to be happy with each other. To start a relationship with someone, you have to be friends with this person. I think that everybody wants to have this sort of a best friend relationship and yes I want that too. Today I just felt like writing this down I don't know why.. maybe because it's been a long time since I haven't really writing stuff