I'm so in love with dark colors, so in love with fall also <3
My favorite season is coming up and I still haven't bought my steven madden boots that I wanted for a long time, -tears- okay I have to go back to studying like a nerd o-o that was supposed to be glasses ahaha :) okay I'm laughing alone, how pathetic

what if we've already met the right person but too scared to fall in love

life is all about taking chances

I wonder if people do read my "daily" diary even though I barely write on it. I'm lazy...... I prefer tumblr you know :)

Really tired, right now I'm in starbucks drinking my hot chocolate hehe :) I wanted a the caramel moka but I want to take a nap when I go back home so I guess I'll pass. I went to the library today because I had to find some books for our project. Lucky me but yeah I got the chance to go out so I guess there is a good thing about it. Even though I am a little bit exhausted... I haven't slept properly (like everyday) yesterday.. I don't know what's going on lately but I look like I am a little bit depressed even though I am not. Maybe because of my black hair or that I'm just not feeling well. I think it's going to pass so yeah hopefully it will. A lot of project, a little bit exciting because some of them are fun to do. I think I pretty much enjoy school so far :) Loving our economy course , for real it's amazing! Everyday I learn something new and I feel smart ahaha . Anyway going back to my homework so that I can sleep in the subway and take a nap or I might just sleep really early today. 14 HOURS OF SLEEP ? WHY NOT
NOP I guess I am not depressed after all because SLEEPING makes me happy.

CHANGE OF PERSPECTIVE HERE.

watching vampire diaries hehe :) stephan and damon are so hot.. elena is freeaking lucky bitchacho

I hate being confused by my own feelings..

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I'd chased after you or talked to you even more. As I look at you, I can picture us together. We might be really happy. What didn't I make this effort? I mean you didn't make any so would I. Sometimes it sucks to realize that you've put so many efforts into someone and they give nothing in return. Maybe that was what I felt towards you. I felt like everytime I talk to you well I am bothering you. You didn't want to talk to me, you found me annoying. That's why I've distanced myself but what if... What if I MEAN what if. We will never know because I've lost the motivation ..

Sometimes I wish I could have done some things, sometimes I regret of doing some of them but at the end of the day I am who I am and I can't change that. Sometimes I wish I could have just walk to him and just talk to him but something is holding me back. Maybe pain? Or maybe the fact that it won't change anything whether I go or not..

Life has its own ups and downs and even though things aren't great as they seems there's always going to be a better day. Sometimes we wish that certain things changed for the best but we have to accept that it's what life gave us that matters. Cherish the little thing and enjoy every piece of it like a delicious red velvet cake. It's hard.. but it's worth it.

I've just realized that I can't do my homework at home because I always get distracted by everything so now I do my homework at the library near my house. Seriously seeing people working makes you feel like doing it to. So it helped me doing all my homework and listening to music at the same time and nobody can bother me. I guess today I've stayed until 5pm and picked up something to drink a Mcdo because I was too thirsty and walked home afterwards. What a simple day but I really have to share something today. I HATE stairs. Seriously I hate stairs. Maybe because I am lazy or my cardio is just terrible but seriously I hate them. I always end up breathless and cranky after that. I might go to sleep early tonight... No more 1 am for me.
Anyway I have to find some article/books on a document that our french teacher gave us. Seriously I am tired of school and starting chinese school on saturday.. HOW GREAT

I want a baby brother :(

What if it turns out to be something that I don't want. I don't want to lose you. I'm scared.. I act heartless sometimes but it's not to hurt you really it's not. You mean so much to mean but I just can't picture us together because maybe we're so comfortable right now. I know I might be a selfish because I want you all to myself but you are not mine and I can't act like this. It's either you or I take action or we have to stay this way. I don't want to lose my freedom but I want you. How can I be so selfish? I want you but I don't want to be with you. My selfish reasons are I don't want to get hurt, I want to maintain this lifestyle.. I have to make a choice. People tease us and I find it funny because really I want us to be more and I wonder if you feel the same way too. No matter what, you will always make me happy with your embrace, with your cute smile and your adorable voice. Everything about you just makes me happy..

I've learned how to ride a bike today. Seriously I felt like a kid again and all my worries were suddenly gone. I really have to thank my friends for teaching me. They are the cutest couple ever and they are inspiration for couples and for true love these days. I wish them all the best <3

Super happy today but it's monday so that means that tomorrow is school day :( But it's okay, at least I had fun today. So I went to chinatown to order the cake for my grandpa's birthday with my friend. We walked around in chinatown and I bought a new Iphone case, super cute because it's minnie mouse. Currently, I'm loving this little mousyy hehe (; So after we went to drink bubble tea like real asians while waiting for our guy friend to come. After we went to hotpot, and gosh it was good. But at the end we were so full that we felt sick a little bit. We walked around and I proposed to go to Chapters because I wanted to find new books to read even though I've already bought 5 books. Currently reading Crescendo, Divergent, This is a book, a book about facts and Wings. SO today I decided to buy Vampire Diaries because I wanted to watch the show but before that I want to read the books and compare them. I didn't get the chance to do that with Pretty little liars so before watching Vampire Diaries I have to read it first! Also I've realized that I never read Twilight, what a shame! Harry Potter too! WHAT DID I DO DURING MY TEENAGER LIFE?!? I have to catch on because they're so many books that I want to read but so little time. Seriously, I'm craving for books. Just loving the fact that I can be a whole other world while reading <3 That's the best feeling. It sucks that people are surprised that I read.. they judge by appearances...