Tonight so many things happen. Actually good and bad things. I had the chance to reunited with my childhood best friends that I love the most <3 I missed them so much like crazy. Can't believe it's been 11 years we've known each other!! And the bad new is I know that I haven't moved on yet. I still have strong feelings for him. Some times I can't explain why I love him that much. What did he do to me? But I fell for him badly. I mean madly. He's so gorgeous, I just couldn't take my eyes off him. I love him and I know I have to stop this because it's not worth it. I've never been this broken before. I can't let myself talk to him. My world will collapse. I want to erase him. I don't want to talk about him but why. Why. Why. Why. I've questionnes myself before. What did he do to me to hurt me so bad? Maybe because I know that I can't be with him. We're not meant to be together. My one sided love is all for nothing. I'm just fooling and hurting myself to a point that I can't feel anything. I'm too used to feel this way that nothig can reach. Nobody can help because I've already fallen too hard and it's already too late to catch me. Love hurts. I hate this feeling. At the same time he's the only that can make my heart melt but also can break into thousand pieces. Anyway fuck this shit. I'm just really stupid...